Just some thoughts...

Hmmm...its been a while since ive posted something.. Whenever something happens..I always go like I oughta put it up here, but then it just never happens...I wonder why... is it laziness or is it the fact that I'm not very comfortable with others reading what I'm writing about..coz its something that comes within me and I am not the type to share my thoughts and feelings so easily...but at the same time, this blog gives me the space to just be me...

Anyways I've noticed in the last few months, I seem to be changing, i find myself thinking in different ways about many things...for the better or worse..I don't know...maybe it's just a part of growing up, new responsibilities, and learning about life, relationships and generally dealing with the big bad world out there. Funny..how at different stages of life, you feel as though you've finally made that great big leap and u go like "hey so I'm finally seeing the big bad world"..thats what I thought when I joined college..and then I realized that was nothing compared to what I saw in my post grad level..so i was like hey so this IS the real world...and still again I'm learning now that it wasnt actually much...and NOW is what the real world is..with what work pressures, living on my own (albeit in comfort but still...) and yet I know, at the next stage I'll look back and realize that this also isnt really IT..and somehow there's lots more...
Its weird...as a kid I couldn't wait to grow up and now while I'm well into the process, I just wish I could stop time and go back to being a kid again....

Of late I've been really thinking about others..relationships...with friends, with my family...and with certain others... Funny how someday it strikes one that you just can't do without some people..and that you can't help hurting them either. I'm just praying that what ever happens....everything will turn out great. I have always love the song...Que Sera Sera...whatever will be, will be....but I also know in the end, we all also have a part in whatever happens.... So I'll just wait and see what happens for now...and just hope...hope...